leatherman's log  
March March 2010
Week One |   Week Two |   Week Three |   Week Four

Week One:
Continuing with the birthday celebrations of last month (Jonathan, Lisa, TJ, Donny and Ann), this month has even more celebrations.

Happy Birthday!!

Ritchie, Angie, Celia, Linda, Mike P,
Austin, mIkIE, Jon, Kayla, and Mary

Living in the Woods
Stepping out onto the porch the other morning, I noticed something that looked out of place. I tried to decided if perhaps a branch had fallen and that was the difference I could see. Can't you see what I saw in these pictures?
How about now, if I enlarge it?
Yeppers! Just like in Ohio and elsewhere in the America, the deer are rampant down here. But I'm no hunter, so I had hollered at the deer to stay right where he was while I ran inside to grab my camera to take a shot. The deer obligingly stayed where it was so that not only did I snap a picture from the porch; but I walked out of the dogz fenced-in area and down towards the top of the drop-off leading to the gulley and got an even closer picture. That's when I noticed that ...
... not only was there a deer
on this side of my camera's view; ...
...but there was another deer
on this side of the picture!
As soon as I spoke and informed the second deer that I could see it too, they both turned around on a dime, and high-tailed it back the way they had come. Can you see both of the deer scampering away? MouseOver each one for a CloseUp!

re: the new med
I've been on the new med (Truvada) for about a week now, and I had some side effects that I've gotten over and some that are still hanging around. Days Two-Five weren't happy days, as my body adjusted to the new stuff. (Of course, that whole sentence is "code" for "of course, it's a new med so it had to make me barf some!" ) But I've been fine and no puking for 4-5 days afterwards now, so I'm hoping I'm passed that phase.
 
The lingering effects seem to be mainly a little "brain-related";
but with some extra joint and muscle achiness thrown in on the side.
 
Dreams!?! Why do all these newer meds seem to make your subconscious dreaming go wonky?!? It's okay though. I'm not having the wake-up-screaming nightmares of Sustiva, nor the wacky wake-up-talking vivid dream of Chantix; but I am having intense dreaming since I started up Truvada.
 
I'm also having some periods of, for want of a better word, "fuzziness". I find if I focus on my monitor too long, or the road, a song, or even an idea, I feel sorta like I have a valium buzz rather than an alcohol or pot buzz. It's not very intense nor of long duration. It's not really a problem. I just seemed to be extra "relaxed" lately.
 
All-in-all, I'm happy with the results so far - even if the dreamy-fuzzy part doesn't wear off. However, the real test will come about in another month or so. Then it'll be time to check some blood work and see if my numbers have changed.
 
I think I'm about to type the most optimistic thing I ever have:
I'm gonna bet my numbers STAY stable
You know, I'm still shocked by the notion of stable numbers. It took 12 years to get the virus suppressed to undetectable and onto a med regimen that wasn't puking my life away. Just in time to have 2 years of the most stable GOOD numbers during the time in which   we I  found out my partner Jim was deadly ill, and  he passed away; and in which I moved through three homes in three years. So now I've had good numbers long enough that for once I'm going to expect that they'll come back good numbers again.

Cyber-Volunteering
As March began, I got a phone call about volunteering some more time to help out my clinic (the Catawba Care Coalition ASO and Christopher Clinic) here in Rock Hill, South Carolina. I'm going to go help stuff-n-stamp envelopes for a while tomorrow. I also confirmed that I'll work a few hours  next week in the pantry (passing out taxables).
Because of how helpful and comforting the people at AidsMeds.com were when Jim was ill and passed away, I've always tried to cyber-volunteer my time and knowledge back to that group by making sure to welcome and help new members when they join the site. Having lived with HIV/AIDS for over 18 years, I not only know a bunch about about the disease itself, but also the meds and treatments. Plus living through those 18 years just goes to show someone newly diagnosed that HIV isn't killing people like it use too and that with the better meds, these "newbies" aren't quite at death's door like they might have been 15 or 20 years ago.
 
Don't misunderstand me though. Even though the meds are better and we know more of the science about this virus, it's still scary to get diagnosed with a terminal disease that's only kept in check by staying adherent to taking the meds daily. Chemo treatments every day of the rest of your life is a tough way to live - but it's only as tough as you let it be.
Every time I tell someone about the troubles I've had (the car wrecks, burglaries, fire, the deaths of pets and the deaths of two partners, losing 2 houses and 2 cars, etc) is not to diss their problems or anyone else's. I can only tell you that if little bitty ol' mIkIE can still keep struggling through what's he gone through and made it out the other side, then you TOO can get through your problems. It just takes hard work and time. (I'm volunteering to try to up my karma a bit more for the next big problem that comes along.)

This month, I'm getting a chance to add some more cyber-volunteer to my resume thanks to Catawba Care Coalition. This month the ASO (Aids Service Organization) will be putting out one of their quarterly newsletter - and there will be a little ol' blurb about little ol' me and my little ol' website here.
 
So, welcome to all my fellow South Carolinians who have found me through the Catawba Care Coalition newsletter.If everyone will bear with me just a minute, I'll tell the CCC visitors a brief history of how my site even got  here, and then I'll finish up the update with pictures of ME, picture of the boyz, and OMIGOSH-not-again-! sn@w pictures!!

After I survived being in the hospital with PCP on my 34th birthday, I optimistically looked towards having a future and bought my domain "reigningpages.com". This domain is named after the pet shop "It's Reigning Pets" that my first partner (Randy) and I owned in Canton Ohio; which is named after my first cocker spaniel "Appollonia's Purple Reign" whose name comes from the Prince movie "Purple Rain".
 
To prove to my family that AIDS hadn't killed me yet, I began to post pictures the following Christmas about all my holiday celebrations throughout town. After that I began to post pictures and stories about my activities each month. My site quickly became my diary of daily living, and living with HIV. Some days things went well, and other days things went badly.
 
Because I felt obligated to keep my visitors/readers entertained, having to update this site has actually pushed me into having a better life. I've gone out more, done more, and documented more so I'd have something to talk about in my 2-3 updates each month. This objective has only been made stronger by my loss of both Randy and I. Being gone doesn't allow you to enjoy the things and events of this world, so I feel that I have to live enough to experience life for myself and also for Randy and Jim who no longer can. I've seen the brevity of life upclose-n-personal and know I need to grab as much as I can of what's offered before it's all gone from my reach too.
 
Using the calendar on the left side of the site, you can visit through the last 12 years of my life. My newer visitors from CCC especially might want to check out some of these "HIV highlights" of my life:
back in the hospital with pneumonia in 1999 | A regimen of 15 pills a day | Changing to a New Doctor | Another Mystery Fever | Losing my 2nd long-term partner (Jim) | Stable numbers after a decade: UD but still under 300

The Sunny South
Last month, I said a few disparaging comments about the Yankee weather that I've left up there in Ohio, when it turned around and dumped some more snow here on us in SC. Although my friends have had even more sn@w, I'm NOT gloating. (I'm really not! I mean it.) These pictures are not to rub anyone's face in it; these pictures are just to show how it was in the low 60s and sunny the other day.
I've had a new fetish lately. (Don't worry, it's G-rated, so now one has to close their eyes or look away) Ever since Christmas, when I helped out building the gingerbread house with my nieces, I've been on a Twizzler kick. This cherry-red cherry-flavored pull-apart candy is chewy and tasty.

The Sn@wy South
Oh no! I guess I was showing off when my sunny pix, because it's sn@wing again in South Carolina! This makes a third bout of sn@w so far this winter in an area and doesn't always even have one sn@w day incidence.
MouseOver Sn@wflake CloseUp
I guess if I was given my choice of how it would sn@w, today wasn't too bad a way to go. It would sn@w just long enough to cover up the yard, then it would stop sn@wing long enough for the temp to melt it all away; before going through the cycle again.
Here's proof that Spring really is just around the corner!
 
Throughout the day we had 4 or 5 waves of sn@w before it finally ended -
and totally melted away!

the Boyz
Recently the aidsmeds.com website was requesting people's stories about living better by having a pet. Of course, you all know it's the love of my puppies that has kept me going this long, so I wrote up a nice couple of paragraphs about how much I love my puppies. I had to consult the puppies' website (http://reigningpages.com/puppies) to get some dates, and realized that it's been a long time since I had updated their website (it's just another thing I have to do for them since they don't have thumbs.). Since I had fallen down on my duties, their site hadn't been updated since 2007 (about the time we all moved into Jim's house). Needless to say, I took some time and updated the site. Not only did I add more pictures; but I also added cute pix icons in the menu. If you get a chance, surf over and visit to read about my cockers, and see plenty of pictures.
http://reigningpages.com/puppies
Here are some bonus pictures, of some of my boyz, that haven't been posted to their site yet.
Joxer and Zeus enjoying an mild afternoon on the porch

Outside Fighting Off Cabin Fever
With cabin fever building up after one day of snow, when it got nicer, and while the dogs were outside enjoying the nicer weather, I got outside too. Though Spring isn't here quite yet, it is time to start thinking about some outdoor projects.
 
Since I'm going to be adding some railing to one end of the deck, I started a flower bed in front of the deck with some iris bulbs. Until the plants grow up and the dogs can see them, I've put some branches around to hopefully keep all the dogs from tromping through the mud.
Soon, it'll be time to turn over these garden areas and plant some veggies (tomatoes, bell peppers, broccoli)
 
Two days later when the weather took another balmy turn,
I scratched that chore off my list.

Unfortunately, this evergreen shrub hasn't done well in the backyard
and didn't stay so green after Mom's dogs peed on it. So I dug it up.
Mom had already gotten a replacement plant, so I pulled some shovels out of the shed, dug up the planter and planted another bush. Adding some fencing around the planter should help this burning bush do better than that other poor peed-upon bush.
 
Aries and Zeus
The first flowers of Spring are officially here now!
These crocus are blooming in the backyard.
Click either picture for a larger desktop wallpaper size
 
More Flowers
 
 
 

A New Project Idea
I know I talked about building a yard water feature last year; but by the time summer came around and it was time to do something like that, things were already falling apart with John and with Joyce, and I was already seeing that things were going to be changing for me. However, now that I'm somewhere where I should be staying for a while, it's almost time to consider a new fountain/pool
Part One of my project is to dig out and make an arc-shaped pool for the fountain in the area right off the porch. Then I would place a fountain in the far end.

MouseOver these pictures to "see" the concept

Week Two:
Flugtag Returns
I saw a commercial on TV last night that brought back some memories. The Redbull company (that makes the drink) is bringing their Flugtag competition back to America. Flugtag is a crazy contest in which groups make a "flying machine" that gets pushed off a pier. Although the winning team is the one that gets their contraption to go the farthest, everybody wins in this crazy contest.
Jim and I attended the event when it was held in Cleveland in Sept. 2006
I went to the Flugtag site and found some more pictures of the event. Somewhere in that crowd were Jim and I.
ftag
If you look closely at the right hand side of this picture,
(MouseOver for a CloseUp)
I think that's Jim wearing that pink cap that he got from one of the Flugtag teams (Team Origami)
After that event, Jim and I were home and invented "Pooltag", the wacky contest where teams constructed pool floats out of 2-liter pop bottles and tried to float across the pool without sinking.

Week Three:
I'm Hoping Spring has Sprung
I have been finding crocuses (or is it croci?)
scattered about the property, blooming away.
I brought some seed down from Ohio with me,
so I've been looking around for some places to start some new flower beds.
Recycling an old folding door, I removed the slats (I'm hoping to recycle those into short flower bed fencing.), and set it up in a new flower bed that I dug up. I'm going to be planting morning glories here. Because of where my desk sits, the flowers won't block my view of outside; but hopefully when the trellis/door is filled with morning glories, it'll help shade this side of the house just a bit this summer.
(there are some more pictures of this flower bed later in this update)
 
Back I arrived in September, these two pear trees were beginning to change colors as the Fall approached, making them the most arresting visual image from both the driveway and the living room. I'm going to work up a flower bed on the backside of trees (that's just on the other side of the hedge from my side porch and the dog run. I think this pretty sunny spot will be a good place to plant some cosmos. I think this area will look very nice with the smaller plants out front of the tree, and the trees against the tall cosmos behind them.
With I was out working up all these flower beds, I worked on the rosebush at the trellis that leads to the gate into the boyz' yard. Since the rose has already been putting out a ton of new growth, it was time to start weaving those branches into the wooden trellis. I pulled out the ladder and worked carefully so I didn't get to pricked up by the thorns. I can walk under the trellis now without having little branches poke me in the head or eyes. I think in another two weeks, it'll probably be time to work on this again with even more of the rose plant has grown out.
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Happy Birthday, Leatherman!
I had a nice birthday - I ate BBQ. The weather that day wasn't half bad, so it wasn't too terrible turning 48. This birthday was world's between than in the hospital with Jim on my 46th, or in the hospital on my 36th with pneumonia, or in the hospital on my 34th with PCP. Or the 8 years in Ohio when the whole state was closed down for blizzards on my birthday.
Did you know that my birthday has become a holiday?!? Yeppers, it's PI Day.
Not like apple, cherry, or pecan pie; but the ratio of a circle's circumference to its diameter or 3.1415926535

Digging in the Dirt
Seeming like Spring was in the air, I took to the outdoors some for a few sunny days. But i wasn't outside just sitting on the porch and reading; I was also spending time getting the garden ready. I'm going to hold off planting any seeds for just a little bit longer; but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't go ahead and get the beds weeded, dug up, turned, and add new dirt and fertilizer, so they'll be ready to plant whenever.
With my headphones on, jamming away, I kept digging up shovelfuls of red clay, breaking up the clods, pulling out roots, and mixing in good dirt. I moved the wood logs to the side to get the whole area. Afterwards I put the logs back, leveled out the soil, propped up the rose bush, and have an old rack ready as a trellis for some cucumber plants.
 
Not too shabby looking to be 48 years old (and one day)

(and not a bad picture using the timer. I'm still learning how to take pictures of myself.
   

Leatherman Goes to the State Capitol
There is a terrible thing happening in the state of South Carolina. Deciding to phase out the state's corporate income tax, the state legislature has decided to cut various state medical services because of the reduced revenues. These spending cuts will end programs for nearly 26,000 people getting help from the Dept of Disabilities and Special Needs, will slash $35 million from the Dept of Mental Health's $161 million budget, will impose a 3-drug prescription cap in a program that has been covering up to 10 meds, and will totally cut all HIV/AIDS state funds to a program called ADAP (AIDS Drug Assistance Program) and for all prevention programs. (see this link to "The State" for more information)
 
So far these cuts have passed through the State House Ways and Means committee which means this isn't the final budget yet and there's still time to try to make a change.  A contingency from my local ASO, the Catawba Care Coalition based in York County and also serving Lancaster and Chester counties, has an appointment scheduled Tues. 3/16 to meet with Representative J. Gary Simrill (District 46 - York Co.) a member of the Ways and Means Committee. A state-wide organization (the SC HIV/AIDS Care Crisis Task Force) scheduled a protest rally to be held in the State Capitol Building's rotunda on Wednesday.
 
I went to a couple Act-Up Cleveland rallies back in the early 90s. Unfortunately many of the activists back then (who got programs like ADAP in effect) passed away from AIDS. Many of the people who were left afterwards were like me and too busy trying to stay alive than to continue the protesting. Since then the meds have gotten progressively better, and many people don't understand the struggle HIV positive people went through to get care, treatment and drugs. ADAP budgets are being cut now because people have become too complacent about HIV and the damage it does to lives.
 
Since I've been trying to volunteer more now that I'm feeling better, I figured what better way to volunteer for than a little activism.  Though I contacted my ASO several times, they didn't ask me to go along on Tues, nor did they make any arrangements for anyone to attend the rally on the following day - so I went on my own.
 
It was a nice hour and a half drive down to the state capital. The day warmed up with some milky sunshine and the traffic was light on the highway. I did have to stop twice though on the way down; both times for odd reasons. First, my meds and last night's dinner didn't seem to be happy with one another and I was having some issues. Pulling over into a rest area, I was able to laugh at bit at my situation. Here I was going to attend a rally, so people could get access to meds, meds like the ones I took, that make you barf or have diarrhea. Then I had to stop again before getting into Columbia because I was having a bit of a mild panic attack. Normally, if I was going on a trip like this, I would have been going with Jim. Sometimes when I have thoughts about Jim, they show up without warning and can be pretty overwhelming. After a short stop with another quick trip to a restroom (to walk around a bit and to slash some water on my face), I felt better and was back on my way.
 
I was pretty surprised pulling into the state capital. Though I keep accidentally calling "Columbia" "Columbus" (the state capital of Ohio) there wasn't any mistaking the actual cities. While Columbia is pretty with it's palm trees and Southern charm, it's only 1/7th the size of Columbus OH. Why it's so small that it's only half the size Akron!
Outside the South Carolina State Capitol Building in Columbia, SC
Wow! The place sure looks different than after General Sherman visited during the Civil War.
(or as we Southerners call it "the war of Northern Aggression")
The Capitol is surrounded on all sides by various monuments. This one with a bas relief is dedicated to the African-American struggle in SC.
Inside the Capitol Building underneath the Rotunda, people gathered to protest the ADAP budget cuts.
 
The reason ADAP is so important is because the drugs used against HIV are so important. Without treatment, HIV is still the same terminal disease that it has always been. Only the medications stop HIV from turning into AIDS before it causes death. There's another catch to the meds though. Unlike other meds, once you start antiretrovirals, you must continue to take them without any breaks, or the HIV can mutate against the medication and make it ineffective. Since there are only a few meds that can be used, if they become ineffective, then death can surely follow.
 
In 2006, SC ran out of money to cover with ADAP program and health clinics were forced to start a state waiting list. That meant that newly diagnosed people without insurance, no matter how sick they were, received no medications at all but were added to this list. Though this sounds like it could be money-saving technique for the state, we also know that if people aren't treated with the meds, which granted are pretty expensive each month, treatment, the cost of caring for them in a hospital while they die from an OI (opportunistic infection) is much greater, so there is no cost savings in reality. While waiting on their turn on the list to hopefully receive meds in 2006, four people actually died.
 
ADAP has paid for my meds in the past (up in Ohio), so I understand how important this program can be. Although I'm not using ADAP now, I have to wonder if my doctor's decision recently to change my meds (dropping me from four to three meds) wasn't just altruistic but to conform to the Medicaid cap of only covering 3 medications.
The Rotunda quickly filled up as the time for the rally approached. A quick head count easily tallied up to 300+ people filling the center area and down each of the four wings of the capitol building. As the rally proper began, many people moved into the area behind the podium giving better access to the media crews and their cameras, while keeping the crowd within the camera frame.
After opening remarks by Rep. Joseph H. Neal, there were several speakers touching on subjects like the medical impact of HIV, a focus on women with HIV, the impact of the cuts in SC, and how the youth of SC are increasing becoming positive. There were even several church pastors who spoke about the Christian charity aspect (well, I am living deep in the Bible Belt now, so what do you expect) of providing life-saving meds and health care to our fellow citizens living in South Carolina.
 
There's another good article and video about the situation and the rally at
http://www.thestate.com/2010/03/18/1205355/hundreds-protest-hiv-funding-cuts.html
 
The day before the rally some of the legislators had proposed restoring about half the money to the ADAP program but that still won't remove the waiting list nor provide funds for any prevention programs. With the state of South Carolina now #8 on the list of states with the most cases of HIV (and increasing!), I hope the rally, the letters, and the calls make the legislators change their mind about cutting the funds against such an important state problem.
 
Since this budget has not been passed yet, there is still time to contact the legislators about changing their decision.
Click info for more information along with phone numbers and email links of those who should be contacted.
Thank You for your assistance in this matter.
leatherman aka mIkIe
at the rally

I'm going to have to learn to smile for the camera but I was too busy trying to hold out the camera and push the button. As I mentioned earlier, I'm still learning how to take pictures of myself. It wasn't all that long ago that Jim was the one taking pictures of me.
 
I'm a little maudlin about all that right now. Losing two men whom I loved so dearly has really destroyed a big part of my heart and soul, that even on my best days is hard to cover or not acknowledge. I usually keep most of my grief to myself. Not that I'm all psycho about it; but really, who wants to hear such sad talk, and there's nothing anyone can do to "make it better". Being a "widower" is just a burden that I have to bear.
 
I have just been thinking about Jim a lot because of this trip. At any other time in my life over the last 16 years, Jim would have been in the car with me going on a trip like that. Then I had to take pictures of myself instead of Jim taking the pictures.
 
When I got home, I did something I haven't done yet. I went back and read my blog from Mar 08. I've been avoiding doing that this year; but after thinking about him all day at the rally, I broke down and read some of my entries. These were some of the days, 2-3 weeks into his hospital stay, when there was still hope. Jim had gotten better enough to get out of the Critical Care Unit, and he had one round of chemo and seemed to be doing ok. There was even talk of him returning home soon. How naive I was. Little did I know how little of what the doctors told us was ever going to come about.
 
I think I'll hold off another week or two before I read any more of those entries. Because really, I don't even need to read those blog entries to be sad about losing Jim. With such radical changes in my life (a new home every year for the last three years - after nearly 2 decades of stability) just being in SC reminds me that Jim is gone. Every time I work out in my yard and gardens I'm reminded that it's not Jim's or my old yard or garden. Really everything I do reminds me that Jim is gone and that's really a rather sad feeling for me, than the "adventurous" feeling I'm trying to give to it all.
 
Ah, and there's the rub. Just doing these things, without Jim, is part of moving on, part of rebuilding my life and part of dealing with the grief.

Bivens Birthday Bash!
Many years, when I was living in Ohio, if I didn't come home for Christmas, I came down sometime in the middle of March for the Bivens Birthday Bash. We held this big birthday party because between Feb. 27 and Mar. 23, my immediate family (my mom, myself and my two brothers) all have our birthdays. Extending this time frame earlier into Feb (around the 11th), we can add in the birthdays for a nephew, a niece and a sister-in-law. Just because I don't live in Ohio anymore, didn't mean that we couldn't still have this party.(I tell you driving about 20 minutes across town was a lot easier that getting a plane ticket or driving that 550 miles. )
All the adults getting the dinner ready
Lisa, Angie, Donny, Jon, Celia (Mom), and Dennis
My two brothers
Jon and Donny

Our middle brother, Donny (in the blue shirt) just turned 43 on Feb 27th; my youngest brother, Jon (in the brown shirt) turns 41 on Mar 23rd, while I just turned 48 back on Mar 14th.
 
Brats, burgers, chips, dip, pickles, lettuce, tomatoes, chili
strawberry cake, éclairs and Whoppers cake
and a specialty from Ohio - Three-Cheese Grilled Potatoes!

Even More Flowers
 
There's one poor little forsythia
on the front hill out by the yard.
 
As promised, here are a few more pictures of the new cosmos bed I prepared. It didn't take me too long to dig up the area as you can see on the right. After turning the soil a few times and adding a bag of top soil, I actually planted the cosmos to finish off my work in that flower bed.
 
The magnolia in the front yard has been in the last few days
I've been doing yard work out in the big back yard too. After getting these pots ready to be planted with some tomato plants, I weeded along the walkway and the through the flower beds and then started mulching these flower beds.

Week Four:
Around the Yard
It's Spring in a NEW yard, so leatherman has been hard at work digging, planting, weeding, and soaking up the sunshine down here in the sunny, warm South.
That's lemon balm in the end section, and right next to it I planted dill. The plan is to grow other herbs in the other 4 sections of this garden planter. In this smaller garden planter, I planted cucumbers underneath that old shelf unit, so they'll have something to climb up. I also planted radishes and lettuce in this section, along with a row of sunflowers just behind that rose bush at the end of the panter.
The magnolia tree is just beautiful blooming these beautiful purple flowers.
 
Within just two days, the pear trees went from having just a few starter leaves to white blooms beginning to cover the trees
Just underneath and behind the pear trees is the flower bed I started for the cosmos just a short time ago. Less than two weeks have gone by now, and here's the first cosmos shoot poking it's head out of the ground.
All across the yard, signs of Spring are showing. Tiny leaves on the trees, the magnolia and pear trees blooming, the grass shrubs and rose bush all busily growing.
 
Growing amongst the clover in the yard are these tiny delicate little blue flowers The daffodils are still blooming nicely

Haircuts and Baths
Of course, now that the Winter is behind us, it was time for the dogz to lose the shaggy look
and to get cleaned up and smelling pretty.
Zeus Joxer
the twins - Aries and Zeus
Though everyone looked better after the haircuts
- and smelled better after the baths -
the boys didn't seem happy to have been put through the wringer.
Often while I'm working outside,
Mom and Dennis' dogs watch me ...
... and sometimes they "sing" (ie howl) to me too
As you can see I'm still having a hard time taking pictures of myself.

Birthday Thoughts
"Today is the greatest day I have ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow, I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out, before I get out"
--Today by the Smashing Pumpkins
today I turn 48. WooHoo!

today has been 1 year and 47 days
that I have not smoked a cigarette. WooHoo!

today is 6 months
that I've lived in my new home. WooHoo!

today is 13 yrs
since I was in a hospital dying with PCP. WooHoo!

today is 11 yrs
since I was in a hospital dying with pneumonia. WooHoo!
(and I haven't been back since!)

Two years ago today my partner Jim received a diagnosis of non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, to go along with the AIDS diagnosis he received just a few days before.

it's been 367 days since Jim passed away.
it feels like forever. it feels like last month.

This cartoon was on the bday called my friend Emma (over in England) sent me. Having had 7 spaniels at one time and living through some very cold Ohio winters, this card was spot on!

A Few More Pix from Around the Yard

The Front Yard
The front yard is becoming
more colorful by the day!
Pear Tree Blossoms
   
Wow!
In just two days, there are tons more cosmos popping up out of the soil. Within the next 30 days, we should see the pear tress grow their leaves, and a bed of cosmos growing up behind them.

The Back Yard
I spent some time helping out Mom in her back yard. While getting her barrel fountain flowing again, she got the new table, chairs and umbrella set up. Mom also planted begonias in the multitude of flower pots scattered around the deck; but planted tomatoes in those two large green pots. When I was busy ripping out the honeysuckle from the fence, I sprinkled grass seed in the bare spots, and got this deck flower bed planted up with hostas and some green grass stuff.
The red bud I planted isn't blooming yet; but this one in Mom's back yard sure is!
Getting pricked enough to be very mad, I fussed around with this climbing rose spreading out it's branches and tying it up to the fence.

The Side Yard
I've been working over in the yard that the boyz play in too. As soon as I get the rest of the posts pounded into the ground, we're going to get another roll of fencing and expand the boyz' area, doubling it's size!
I do need to spend a bit more time putting this iris bed into shape.
It was my first project this Spring and needs some fixin' up.
If you look closely, at this blurry pix, you can see a tiny red bud starting to come out on the red bud tree I planted this past Fall. It's a different variety from the other one in Mom's backyard, so I think that may explain why it hasn't really bloomed yet.
 
Going out this morning to take a couple more pictures to post, I saw that the first morning glory and popped up.
So later in the day (after tying up the rose), I strung some yarn to give the morning glories something to grab hold of to climb up the trellis. I was very, very surprised to find easily two to three dozen plants had appeared since just this morning!
 
This week, Mom and Dennis got us a chipper for us to use around the property. Because the lot is nearly all woods, there are a lot of branches to chip up to make our own mulch.
I still haven't planted my hollyhocks yet, nor have I started working on my fountain; but it's only been Spring for a few days so there is still plenty of time.

The Garden
Well, I have high hopes for my biggest project in the yard - the vegetable garden. The last time I put in this much work on a garden was back in Ohio for Joyce. Unfortunately, because our relationship was basically over right after the 4th of July, the only produce I saw out of all my work last year was a couple heads of broccoli and a couple handfuls of radishes that Joyce left out to rot.

I plant to be eating the produce that comes out of the work I put into this garden.
In the Large Planter:

Across the back are broccoli

Down the left side are 2 squash plants,
a red pepper, and a sweet pepper plant

the rest of the are contains 8 tomato plants
Later in the day, I set up some lattice, rather than tomato cages, to support the plants when they grow up.
In the Small Planter:

Across the back is a row of sunflowers
just behind a trellis and a small rose bush

Then a row of spinach,
3 rows of lettuce, and 3 rows of radishes

cucumbers are planted to run up the 4 posts of the recycled green shelving unit.
In the Sectional Planter:
lemon balm,
dill,
parsley and tarragon,
chives and cilantro.

the last two sections haven't been planted yet, though I am considering a section of onions, and then a few cantaloupe plants for the last section.

Off to the right side is a small bed of spearmint
 
Some of the garden items I planted as seeds last week, while others (the ones you can see) were container plants that Mom and Dennis bought for me to plant. Just about 8 days after the initial seeding, there are plants coming up now!
dill radish

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